THAT is me. Don't believe me? Well you should. The girl in the picture on the first page, that is not really me. That is what I look like now, but thats not the real me. Inside me is a skinny gal, totally attractive to my husband just waiting to emerge. It may take her awhile, but she will get there, and the day she buys that dress and she puts it on, you will say...wow that is you! Its not about the looks. Its about achieving something that I set out to do over ten years ago. The day I feel in the Army, that girl in the black dress, she took a back seat. Suddenly I shut her up with pain meds, snacks, and doctor visits. Anything to keep my body happy. Over the years it was one thing after another. A baby, just had a baby, a concussion, another baby. Excuses. Stress, a child with major medical issues. The permission to shut the girl in the black dress up with cookies and cake.....trying and thinking I was doing well. Not..... Not that I am awful inside, I am just real inside. I have weakness, and I am done with excuses. I am going to find that girl in the black dress and let her out of this cage I have kept her in for so long. I want my husband to see her again, and to go dancing with her all night long.
So, cheers to finding that girl. Cheers to buying that black dress and dancing the night away in it. Cheers to loving who I am again.....starting today.
